Before now, I’ve never had to deal with compelling evidence that I’m not good enough. Compelling evidence being the numbers on the results sheet at the end of the day. I know a lot of people don’t like to talk about the numbers, because racing is about a lot more than digits and decimals… but at the end of the day, you’re not going to get picked for the National team, or World Championships, or the Olympics because you tried hard.

Where the motivation went

The blogging hiatus did not last as long as I thought it might, at least not when I look at the calendar. When I think absentmindedly about how long I’ve been under the mental strain that led me to the hiatus, it feels like a longer time though. Writing blog posts serves several purposes for…